eulogy for a cockroach

yesterday
i killed a cockroach
crawling
across
the kitchen stove
smacked
it
with the heel
of my palm
it
flipped on its back and
kicked
and kicked
and 
kicked
i imagine
it cussed 
and prayed
in cockroachese
god!
please!
and 
fuck me running!
alas
it wasn’t
spite
it wasn’t
smite
it committed
no sin
(alas)
i smacked it 
again
with the heal of the palm of the hand of an unkind
ungod
it kicked
no more
i wanted
to cook some chicken
in a clean kitchen
it wanted
to borrow a grain of sugar