secret escape hatch on the back of an old photograph

“when the moon is fake and your mermaids cry” copyright ziggy zagmyer
too much factory district, too much winter bus stop
	too much rent and paper-thin paycheck
too many scrap metal scars
too much heart in my chest pinching lungs in half
too much gray landscape on the surface of my eyes
	too many holes in my jeans
too much is too much and she comes to me
	like something out of a jukebox 
	a renaissance
and i wash away in headsong

her arms
are long
like rope, so i climb up to her atmosphere, copacetic blue
        a million cartoon parachutes
her face 
is calm
always april, shelter from angry storms, and i fall asleep on her cheek
her heart
feels solved
like a vase, open ended vessel
	woman shaped wishing well
her thoughts
are time machines, rosary beads, wind hitting a wind chime
with accidental pleasure
and she says to me
if the world is an actor then the actor is a villain and the strings 
of this machine need oil and ambition and the stage is a mirror 
for the hero in our heads complicated symbols flashlights for weapons 
trick coins and sharp pencils, if the world is an actor
	then the actor is a villain 

she says
go deep
if it soothes
smooths
sink to the bottom of real
	unaware
one eye flashing hazard lights, one eye filled with shadow fish
	exhale and evolve
love will remember your name, skip stones across the water
	trails to lead you back home

somewhere
pastries fall off the back of a bakery truck
	and the ravens dive in
somewhere, a mangy black dog enjoys a brown leather shoe
somewhere, a cross-eyed comet makes lopsided circles
	around a dizzy star
somewhere, a photograph unfolds
	faded
fingers tracing the silver shapes
hitting strings until a symphony explodes
loader than a bus driver’s battle cry:

hey
you getting on or what?

from the book of armaments

“decomposing a symphony backwards thru a blender” copyright 2002 ziggy zagmyer

the following poem was inspired by the 1975 cult classic film “monty python and the quest for the holy grail”, from which the first stanza comes directly

and the lord did grin, and the people did feast, upon the lambs, and sloths, and carp, and anchovies, and orangutans, and breakfast cereals, and fruit bats

and powdered potatoes, and marijuana brownies, and blueberry cough syrup, and prepackaged dry noodles with the little flavor packets in them, and virgins, and dead virgins 

and toe jam, and week-old sushi, and yogurt stains on the carpet, and black rabbit afterbirth, and something blue and sticky at the bottom of the fridge, and tacobell

and the second-hand watch i bought my sister on her birthday that didn’t work, and the asshole who sold it to me, and a sixpack of forty weight lawnmower oil, and the plastic ring carrier that it came with, and the plastic bag i carried it home in, and a glass of antifreeze both half empty and half full, and rupert murdock 

and nine million and twenty three, four hundred and forty thousand, nine hundred and thirty five cubic tons of hydrogenated corn syrup

and spam balls, and cheese logs, and tree frogs, and the stuff they put in lava lamps even through the warning label says we shouldn’t, and a big ol' cherry on top, and whipped cream, and lots of colorful sprinkles, and french chocolate drizzle, and crushed hazelnut, and three sprigs of parsley, and a lemon wedge, and a little umbrella, and some croutons i guess

and it was good
i guess

*process notes: in the image above (decomposing a symphony backwards thru a blender) i created the trash heap in the foreground of the image in a series of layers. the primary layer of garbage was created by writing the names “rupert murdock” and “ted turner” over and over and over, vertically, horizontally, diagonally, forwards, backwards, up-side-down, right-side-up, etc. then drew in more garbage on top of that garbage. i was very happy with the process i used, i think it turned out well =)